I love you princess.

Dear princess,

Aku sayang hang walaupun hang tak reti pujuk aku, tak lap air mata aku bila aku nangis, chat dengan ramai perempuan, Skype dengan perempuan lain, suka merajuk. Dah la suka merajuk, thats why i call him princess. I love you sayang. Tadi dok buat tak mau cakap sangat. Pastu bila orang masuk bilik, dia jerit kat bapak,'Pakcik panggil Iman, Fyzal rindu dia'. Theheheh. Comel la. Pastu tadi dia tarik telinga aku sampai bengkak sebab aku gtau dia aku tau hack Facebook orang. Hahahahah. Tau takut. Kalut nak suruh orang ajar. Fyzal comel.

I love you sayang.

Take that loser.

Its 5.13am now. Yeahhh, Im still awake! So tadi dok online. And ada orang tanya. Tengah buat apa? Aku jawab 'skydiving'. Hahahahahha. Then tau dia kata apa? 'Gila'. Wtf? Hang la gila dah tau aku online tanya lagi. Bengong.

Hahaha.

I dont wanna wake up!

Semalam aku mimpi dia. Wahhhh, best gila. Dalam mimpi tu, dia sembang dengan aku. And he called my name. Oh my god, he said my name. My name was said by him. Hmmmm, did anyone say my name?Oh wait, he did! Muahahahahaha. I tried to archived this moment in my mind so that I can replay it for the rest of my life, like the next time Addmaths class get particularly boring, or when my Physics teacher explain something on the whiteboard *everytime she explains something on the board everyone started to yawn. tapi aku selalu tak menguap dah, tido terus.

But it was just a dream. In reality-the way life really is, not the way it may appear to be or how I would like it to be, we only meet each other once a year and the last time we had a real conversation was years ago.

Aku bangun time azan Zohor tadi -_-'

Its me :)

 

I dont have real friends.

Im too skinny to be a real teenager so I probably die sooner than you guys.

I failed Addmaths and Chemistry.

I dont smoke.

Hmmm, what else?

Yeahhh, I ran away from home once.

-_________-'

I really need a friend.

This isnt a conspiracy. Face it. She doesnt need you anymore, Iman. Wake up!

Gossip Girl.

Blair: Just because you're dressed poorly doesn't mean you're not Chuck Bass.
Chuck: Why would I want to be him?
Blair: You should have told me you got shot.
Chuck: I'm surprised you didn't shoot me yourself.
Blair: I have. Many times. In my dreams. The good ones. But if you were really hurt I'd want to know.
Chuck: When I woke up my ID was gone. Nobody knew who I was, nobody was coming to look for me. I realized I might be alive but Chuck Bass doesn't have to be.
Blair: Changing your name doesn't change who you are.
Chuck: It's a good start. A chance to live simply, earn people's respect. Maybe become a person someone could love.
Blair: Someone did love you. And... you owe it to her and everyone else you're leaving behind not to run away. Which is what you're doing. And I don't think that great man you're talking about wanting to be is a coward. I think he would face up to what he did.
Chuck: I destroyed the only thing I ever loved.

Jealousy.

Birthday aku tak mau wish macam tu plak. Sedih gila :'(

Stupid school trip.

It wasnt my idea in the first place. It was Afeesya's. Dah plan macam macam idea gila like sneak out from our hotel, jumpa fyzal ejat and shuk. Keluar lepak malam malam since susah la nak p KL especially dengan kawan. Selalu p KL lepak dengan sepupu sepupu ja-boring. So I thought it wasnt a bad idea. Aku selalu jugak p KL but this time I thought it was gonna be fun you know, with Afeesya, Fyzal, Ejat, Shuk, adik *of course -___-'. but then Afeesya kena chicken pox. bad luck. poor girl. Kesian dia. But still i thought I could make it without her. I still got adik with me. You know what? I was wrongggg. Time on the way nak p Melaka tu, baru first stop kat perhentian mana ntah, dah kena tegur. dia kata baju aku seksi. I was wearing tshirt, and tshirt tu tak ketat pon, in fact t shirt tu besar. I was like 'what the fuck?'. Whatever. And wanna know the best part of our trip? Yeahhhh. Homestay aku nak kena pecah masuk. Gila. First tu aku tengah lepak dalam bilik dengan adik and Zalikha, then one of my friend frantically gtau aku yang ada laki nak masuk rumah tu sebab depa lupa nak lock pintu. Stupid right? there were 11 girls in the house and not even one of them, I mean us did not bother to lock the door. But even we locked up the door depa still dok kacau. try nak bukak pintu and mangga tu. That was the part when I got really scared. Aku suruh Zalikha dengan Erni pegang kayu, dok tepi pintu so that if depa masuk depa bagi ja dengan kayu. Aku suruh yang lain masuk bilik. Well, i couldnt think of any thing else so we just stick to that plan. Semua panik. takut gila. takut depa masuk nak rompak ke rogol ka. Aku suruh Intan call cikgu. Guess what? Cikgu ingat kami main main and suruh kunci pintu and masuk tidur. i was like ' wtf i got two girls with kayu here and hang kata kami main main'. And dia tak bagi call police.  Benda ni jadi lama jugak. Tiga kali kami call cikgu and you know what, she did not show up, not even once. Dia tak call balik pon tanya semua okay ka tak.  Orang yang nak pecah masuk tu India, lima orang* thats what my girls told me. But tak samapi lime orang kot.Gila. Tapi tak tau kenapa, dia tak boleh masuk. Sedang kan ja nak masuk, pintu pon bukan nya kuat mana pon. Maybe sebab tuhan nak tolong. And earlier that night cikgu bawak kami pegi naik river cruis. Bus tu betul betul berhenti dekat tempat pelacur. And I could tell that it wasnt a safe area, with the prostitudes, and dekat gerai berhampiran banyak laki yang muka macam penagih dadah. Cikgu just biar kami jalan sendiri ja. kat KL lain cerita pulak. Malas nak taip. Menyesal ikot school trip ni sebab nak skip kelas addmath!

UGHHH!